My life problems

[Void.]

Well here's the story

I got high at lunch and my P.E is my 5th period class, right after lunch.

So I go to P.E faded and it was such a weird trip. I was acting ****ing dumb and sketchy as hell. While I was running with my friends, I was talking with this guy named Eric and John. Basically here's my convo of what I was saying:

Me: Eric I bet you look at *** porn ***got
Eric: Yeah man I do, I watch girls and girl action
Me: You're ****ing stupid. *** is two guys you retard
*I start busting out laughing really hard*
Me: (To John) I bet Eric thinks he watches ***** porn but it's actually two guys dressed up as chicks
Eric: (comes up to me) **** you *****

He then puts me in a headlock and I feel like a retard since everyone around us is watching and I'm getting owned. I try prying away but he keeps me in a hold and as a group of girls come by, I manage to squeeze away and bump into a girl.

Without even thinking, I start cussing him out and calling a bunch of crap.

I ended up just running and tried forgetting about it but I can't thinking of how I couldn't fight back and he put me in a chokehold for a couple of minutes with me looking like a retard

Yeah, I know by know you'd be thinking omg Void. is a little ***** who deserved it. I know I shouldn't of been talking crap but the only reason why I aggravated Eric in the first place was because back when I was nice to him, he would punch me and see if I would do anything about it. I got sick of him making me like his little ***** so I started laughing at him and insulting him. The only reason why was because I wanted him to know that I don't take **** from others and to make him back off. It worked and he stopped pushing me around. He was actually nice to me and **** but I got into the habit and the frustration just made me keep acting like **** to him

Just to let the readers know, I did apologize to him afterwards, telling him I wasn't thinking because I was high and I felt really bad for what I did

I'm just so mad and irritated because my weakness showed. Now people will know, including Eric that I'm all talk and my bark is worse than my bite. I'm just sick of people always pushing me around. For instance, my school is a majority of Koreans (myself included) and whenever we're sitting down and talking, people always take the opportunity to insult each other. Like if someone says something, people say oh you're a dumbass or omg shut up you're stupid. People also put others down and try to act superior to others. Idk if they're like me, if they just act like that to prove they're not to be pused around with but I'm ****ing annoyed as hell with it. I'm a quiet kind of guy and whenever I'm not 100% comfortable with a new crowd, I do admit making akward silences and unwitty things to say. But I'm just sick of all this bullcrap of trying to put up a wall around me. Now, my rep is ruined and everyone will push me around if they're stronger than me. I'm just so confused of what to do and sick of everybody. I already tried putting up an attitude and acting tough and trying to be nice. I'm just confused of what to do anymore. Why do kids have to put others down like that. Everyone is also a ****ing poser. If you smoke a crap load of weed and hang out with others that look tough, people won't mess with you. But if you try to act nice to others and just be a normal kid, people will take that advantage. Also, some people are so hypocritical to an extent that I just want to scream out murder. For instance, this kid who's a total poser dresses all skater and 'white boy'. He can't even skate and he dresses like he can. He calls me a white boy because I happen to actually LIKE skateboarding clothes and I actually can SKATE. How the hell am I a white boy? I wear sort of tight pants and skateboard shirts but he's the one who wears abercrombie and all those skating brand crap. God, I'm just so confused of what to say back. I can be a **** and call him a poser but I ended up just smiling at him and telling him to work on his skateboarding skills. He seemed embarrased and told me to shut up in a laughing tone but I don't think that's enough. Should I have just completely mouth him off and call him a poser? Is it bad if use insults with it? Like tell him, 'Shut the **** up poser. You can't skate for **** and YOU'RE the one who dresses like a white boy dumbass'. Or should I just insult him but take out the insults and profanity? I'm so confused right now. PLEASE HELP.

and if you read everything I wrote, that's pretty crazy. I know I wrote a lot but these problems in my life are totally screwing me over. Can anyone give me tips to fight and how to talk back to people that try to insult me?

[Ulyana]

I read it all.
What a fascinating look into the life of a male high school kid.

[Caranthir]

Buy a tazer.

Alternately you can find friends who do not care about reputation or popularity. Yes, there are such people.

[firewizardjt]

I read it all.
What a fascinating look into the life of a male high school kid.

Harsh.


edit by wigum: what is wrong with you people lately. Lets not suggest things like that in joke or seriousness

[krnboy1009]

I read it all.
What a fascinating look into the life of a male high school kid.

Believe me, girls are WORSE.

[Authentic]

Believe me, girls are WORSE.

I agree. The stories I've been told by one of my siblings who's only 12 made me see girls in a whole new way. They're suttle but very conniving.

All the more reason to love em :D

[Makara]

I can be a **** and call him a poser but I ended up just smiling at him and telling him to work on his skateboarding skills. He seemed embarrased and told me to shut up in a laughing tone but I don't think that's enough.

I don't think you're doing too badly, this was brilliant. If you'd just let rip with a load of profanity it'd be "let's wind up the toddler" from then on. Wading in with fists flying would either leave you looking like a brainless thug or a wimp. Instead you smoothly destroyed the guy's little fiction that he's a skate demon & left him with no good comeback apart form the toddler / thug options. Sure, it might earn you a few lumps but everyone gets some of them.

btw, you might want to time your highs a little better :rolleyes:

[d3k0y]

Man. Apparently I was never a high school boy. Or maybe by then I was already the lovable hippie...
My stance is that if people talked about me behind my back...I didnt care haha! Soon they realize that you really could care less and move on cause its no fun to mock someone who doesnt care or let it bother him.
Otherwise. Beat the crap outa them all and get kicked outa school :) I know people who did that! But I still liked my way better haha.

[KindaMaybe]

Good thing im a big guy, so people didn't mess with me. But im also nice, and shy, so that was another reason why people didn't mess with me.

[Ulyana]

Believe me, girls are WORSE.

Actually there WAS this one girl that insisted on trying to bully me. I didn't know her or what her deal was so I'd just kind of raise my eyebrow at her and keep walking.

I think she didn't like that I wore a straw hat whenever I went outside.

I had no problems with anyone else, though.