not even in the friendzone

[Grace]

more like the 'omg not this guy again zone.'


so there's this guy who's liked me (I believe on and off? Possibly has liked me this entire time) since last year. Anyway I knew it, but he didn't know that I knew. And it became increasingly awkward for me to be around him. He already is socially awkward because he was homeschooled through high school. So a few days ago he texted me that he wanted to talk to me. And we never text. Or talk, really. We were in the same small group last year for one quarter and we're in a mutual club, but that's about it. I keep it to strictly business talk (financial, design conversations, etc). So Thursday night I went over and we talked. First thing he asks is how was my birthday party. I said it was good. Then he asked why he wasn't invited.
Sooo awkward.
He said mutual friends were invited this year "like so-and-so," and he was invited last year, so why wasn't he invited?? I said it was because we hadn't really talked the past year (completely true), and we were in a small group together last year.
Then he asked about asking me out a few months ago. And I was like, "what? When did you ask me out??" and he was like "uh...nevermind." (I knew what he was talking about though). So I said, "do you mean when you asked about getting coffee when I was at the info desk...?" and he said yes. I told him that was very unclear, and I couldn't tell what his intentions were. He said he asked me to text him, and that I never did, so he asked me if that was intentional. I said yes, because I figured if it was that important to him, he'd text me about it. (I don't like coffee lol so I didn't text...plus I couldn't tell if it was a hang-out or date). So he asked me for my answer, and he said it was okay if it was a no. I said sorry, but no. And he was like okay. I also told him that he made me feel uncomfortable, and he apologized for that, and wondered if there was any way he could make me feel more comfortable. I said not really, and that it was due to me knowing that he liked me, but he didn't ever do anything about it. I said it just made me feel more and more uncomfortable. (Like I didn't want to be "nice" to him because he might've thought I was leading him on...so I was actively avoiding him and etc.) He said if we could be normal people and just hang out as friends, and asked if we were good. I hesitantly said yeah.

I've talked to a couple friends since then, and one of them brought up two points. 1. That the confrontation about the bday party was totally middle school-esque, and 2. it sounded like I was bitter because he didn't do anything about liking me soon enough.

About #1, the more I think about it, the angrier I'm getting, because you just like.... you just don't ask about hat kind of thing you know? We have mutual friends who have invited me to their birthday things last year, but not this year. And for one of them I understood that we drifted apart and didn't care too much about it, but the other mutual friend not inviting me kind of hurt. But I got over it because anyone can invite whoever the hell they want. And I want this guy to understand that. So I'm thinking about fb msging him. Thoughts?

About #2, I don't really know if I want to talk to him about it, because I doubt either of us really want to talk about it again. But I don't want him to think I would've been interested if he had asked earlier. Because I'm completely 100% NOT interested. Thoughts?